He does not associate himself with other children. It depresses him. Exception is his brother... but the brother is also a man and their way diverted. Now the childhood is lived in him only... in his mind. The child-man will forever be alone, all the memories are dearest secret to him... alone. The only child he will associate is... himself alone.
He does not wish to compromise with anyone. The lives of his parents and dear friends have taught him... He wishes his freedom; a freedom that will keep his secrets. He was the burden to his parents... his mother. He does not wish to live the life of his parents. He wishes to live the life that his parents never lived. And the childhood in him... he wishes to relive... an imaginative childhood. A childhood forever in him.
