Gross and disgusting monster

My skin tone and overall facial features are disgusting and have caused me distress.  I realized that talking to two very close friends and a counselor wasn't helpful.  It feels like I'm trying to shy away from this inevitable ugliness.  I'll stop complaining and just accept that I'm disgusting.  This is something one cannot change.  I'm born disgusting, a gross animal, and I just have to accept this inevitable fate.  This is something most people try to avoid so that they don't appear to be rude or even racist, but I'm not even going to try to deny it.  People judge based on physical appearance (including I, of course); I will admit and accept this reality.

A child-man

He does not associate himself with other children.  It depresses him.  Exception is his brother... but the brother is also a man and their way diverted.  Now the childhood is lived in him only... in his mind.  The child-man will forever be alone, all the memories are dearest secret to him... alone.  The only child he will associate is... himself alone.

He does not wish to compromise with anyone.  The lives of his parents and dear friends have taught him... He wishes his freedom; a freedom that will keep his secrets.  He was the burden to his parents... his mother.  He does not wish to live the life of his parents.  He wishes to live the life that his parents never lived.  And the childhood in him... he wishes to relive... an imaginative childhood.  A childhood forever in him.

Simplicity

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTEMRo-IcGk

Happy dog.

A beautiful scenery

A personal walk over the winter of Lapland.

http://www.theaurorazone.com/media/content/image/58/image.png

From the back of your mind...

Taikatalvi

http://nightwish.com/en/

Lapsistain rakkain tää näyttämö on
Mis kuutamo kujillaan kulkee
Taipunut havu, kesä hoivassa sen
Valkomeren niin aavan
Joka aavekuun siivin
Saapuu mut kotiin noutamaan

Päällä talvisen maan hetki kuin ikuisuus
Mi pienen kissan jaloin luokseni hiipii
Tääl tarinain lähteellä asua saan mis
Viulu valtavan kaihon
Ikisäveltään maalaa
Laulullaan herättää maan

 

Storytime

http://nightwish.com/en/

`Twas the night before
When all through the world
No words, no dreams, then one day

A writer by a fire
Imagined all Gaia
Took a journey into a child-man`s heart

A painter on the shore
Imagined all the world
Within a snowflake on his palm

Unframed by poetry
A canvas of awe
Planet Earth falling back into the stars

I am the voice of Never-Never-Land
The innocence, the dreams of every man
I am the empty crib of Peter Pan

A silent kite against the blue, blue sky
Every chimney, every moonlit sight
I am the story that will read you real
Every memory that you hold dear

I am the journey
I am the destination
I am the home
The tale that reads you

A way to taste the night
The elusive high
Follow the madness
Alice, you know once did

Imaginarium
A dream emporium
Caress the tales
And they will dream you real

A storyteller`s game
Lips that intoxicate
The core of all life is a limitless chest of tales

I am the voice of Never-Never-Land
The innocence, the dreams of every man
I am the empty crib of Peter Pan

A silent kite against the blue, blue sky
Every chimney, every moonlit sight
I am the story that will read you real
Every memory that you hold dear

I am the voice of Never-Never-Land
The innocence, the dreams of every man
Searching heavens for another Earth

 

And dear imagination and beyond...

 

Diesel the English Mastiff

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=1BrJ6J2xuDM&feature=endscreen

Cutest little one.