Gross and disgusting monster

My skin tone and overall facial features are disgusting and have caused me distress.  I realized that talking to two very close friends and a counselor wasn't helpful.  It feels like I'm trying to shy away from this inevitable ugliness.  I'll stop complaining and just accept that I'm disgusting.  This is something one cannot change.  I'm born disgusting, a gross animal, and I just have to accept this inevitable fate.  This is something most people try to avoid so that they don't appear to be rude or even racist, but I'm not even going to try to deny it.  People judge based on physical appearance (including I, of course); I will admit and accept this reality.